All Good Things Must Pass.

Yesterday was warm and sunny. Today it started off like that and the day progressed on to being cold and windy. It made me feel funnies. I don't know why but windy, cloudy days always make me sad. They remind me of Fort Worth and I still get knots and ties in my stomach at the thought of it. I guess some things just never get fixed. Then again, my mood goes up and down without warning so that may be a more reasonable explanation behind it. Whatever it may be today led me to drink lots of coffee and go on a smoking binge. 

Black coffee is delicious if the weather is right and today it was perfect for the occasion. It's a blessing and a curse that I work in a coffee shop. I pity the poor souls who cannot give it up and are addicted to their white mochas. 

But then again on days like these, I pity myself for the thoughts that have haunted me for almost a year. As much as I tell everyone that I want to be by myself and travel the world and learn everything I can; at the same time I want to wake up next to the person that I love and have that person by my side for when life gets tough and when life is really good. Surprises make my heart happy and memories of going home blindfolded to a candle-lit house with Al Green playing throughout the house make me melancholy. But as my good friend Antonio says,

ALL THINGS MUST PASS. 

Good and bad, it all comes to an end. 

My first trip to fort worth. It was cold and windy. Go figure. 

Now DAMN YOU Elton John, four cups of Verona Coffee, cold weather and Adam Sandler in The Wedding Singer. 

NO I WILL NOT GROW OLD WITH YOU. That song is lame anyway. 

Here's the playlist that has prevented me from writing my 15 page paper on my philosophical view over abortion. 

*Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me- Elton John 

*Fast Car- Tracey Chapman 

*Still haven't found what I'm looking for- Buena Vista Social Club 

*Secret- One Republic 

*Life by the Drop- Stevie Ray (aka hubbbyy) 

*Wild World- Cat Stevens 

*Somebody's Baby- Jackson Browne

*Never Gonna Give You Up- Black Keys 

*Slow Dance- John Legend 

*Ausensia- Willie Colon 

*Stop This Train- John Mayer 

*Assassin- John Mayer 

He's got my heart. 

Best John Mayer line for tonight: 

"See once in a while when it's good

It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train"

Now I'll go listen to Stravinsky to make my heart happy before I go to bed. xoxo