Give Me One Reason to Stay Here

When I was in high school it seemed as though whoever you dated or "talked" to had a past that you already knew about. If you didn't know about their past, well someone did and that someone would tell you everything you needed to know. Every guy that I would even come close to talking to in high school would also come with a wave of gossiping, tattle-taling and an eager ex-girlfriend willing to tell you everything you wanted to or didn't want to know. Better yet, it seemed as though it was easier to dislike a guy than it was to like a guy after you found out everything you could. This made dating in high school really lame. It was the reason why the last year of my high school years was also one of the worst years when it came to gossiping and mean girls.

Well what about now? I am 20  years old and single. I like to go out and have fun and meet new people. I'm certain when I was born God said "Let this one be a friendly one," and so I have a natural talent to meet people and befriend them. It has been the reason behind most of my stories and adventures. 

Well last week I was out enjoying dinner in Austin with my friend and we were sharing stories of guys we had either talked to at one point or dated before. Since my previous boyfriends all came from my high school years well it wasn't that hard to describe them. Everyone who attended Hays High School is pretty much the same. Well what about the guys I meet now? I feel a bit intimidated by them because I do not know the person they were before. I don't know if they ever loved another girl before or if he's known for being a bad or good boyfriend. I don't know who their prom date was or if they ever went to prom. I don't know if they come from a good family or if they even have a family. This whole "not knowing" business tends to make me queasy feeling and not very comfortable around them.

Then about two days ago I realized that I was in the wrong. I remembered what it was like to be able to be with someone who you really felt happy with and to know that as important as the past may be it is still the past and what is important is what I put into the future. 

So maybe the guy who makes you completely happy now is that guy who you were mean to in high school. Maybe the guy who is helping you at the bank is that guy who you never wanted to talk to in class. Perhaps your lawyer or real estate agent are the guys who always got the best grades in class and hardly talked. Perhaps the guy who you have fallen in love with now is the nerdy, smelly, annoying boy who you would have never looked at in high school. But what's important is that that guy who he used to be has become into the man who just wants to make you as happy as you can be and that's the kind of thing that makes my heart melt. The past does come back from time to time for some people, but when it comes to love and finding your happiness I think that what counts the most is being utterly happy at that moment with that person. Who cares who you were in the past? 

I'm interested in finding the person within you that will make me as happy as possible.